It's been a very long time since you've heard from me, here's a quick update …
A lot has unfolded. Things that needed to break down did. I re-married and divorced. The delayed grief of the loss of my parents and family was something that shook my world. Family has always been my top value. My concept of it has been obliterated and recreated. That's a good thing.
Space was required to heal and nourish myself. There were a string of losses for many years. Grief unwinds in its own way. For a while, I felt quite lost. That was new for me. Having no foundation whatsoever, feeling moved about by this and that, there were so many hard things to deal with.
I am sure I am not alone in this. The world is coming apart and forcing us to face uncomfortable truths.
It Takes a Toll
Not everything that you experience has to be named and dealt with. It is enough to be with what is occurring in your world. Being present is a kind of cure in that only what is true remains.
Still, this human gig has its own demands. Some things carve out crevices in your being. Only emptiness remains. Love can seep into those spaces but often it's blocked (through our own beliefs and programming).
Dismantling the projection of your world is hard. You have to take responsibility and that is never pretty. It takes consistent effort not to get sucked back into the illusion. To rely on division and distrust. To doubt the sensing in your body that tells you what's true.
The Invitation
This is true for everyone. We all experience these moments. They invite us to step into a newer version of ourselves, one that seems unfathomable. Step into it.
I know I am not alone in processing a lot. Life asks a lot of us right now. We are very well equipped for this time. Willingness is required.
The adventure humbles you. It does for me. Just when I think I know (fill in the blank), I discover I don't know.
I feel softer than I have in my current remembrance. Tender almost. I'm ready to share again. Be again. Create again.
I've jotted out some thoughts and will continue to share. Let me know you're interested. Post your comment below. I'd love to hear from you and how you've been navigating this wild ride called Life.
Writing Again,
Adela
Beloved Adela, Grateful to hear from you. Grateful also that you have been able to give yourself space-time to attend your within. With all-the-everythings, such inner Presence is a gift. It's a roller coaster out there, tracks rolling through the (not) funhouse of late stage patriarchy.
Thank you for sharing your words, wisdom, experience, and tenderness. What a magnificent heart!
With much love and looking forward to staying in touch, SiStar!
Thanks for the gift of your seeing, Bobbye! Love returned, darling.
Adela,
I'm interested! You are such a beautiful soul – Keep Writing – You're really good at it and you influence so many others.
I'm sorry to hear what you have been going through, but just keep remembering that you and the universe are one.
I believe in you!
Be Blessed and Highly Favored.
John
Thank you, John. It is so precious to be seen and it is very important for us to hold one another during this difficult time. Much love!
Hello, Hello sweet Adela…..I always LOVE hearing from you! And, yes, I want to continue to hear from you! I'm so glad you have given yourself the time and space to grieve. Unlike many other emotions, I have always found grief to be the hardest to deal with because it insists on its own time. It will not be hurried. And it asks for us to just be with it. And just be without a prescribed ending. I love that in Spring, you are rising up out of the dark, damp mulch to say HELLO! It's always such a JOY to connect. <3
Thank you, Ellen. I've enjoyed seeing your FB posts and watching the blossoming of your voice. You are a gift, darling! I treasure our connection and feel its depth. I appreciate you in my circle. Let's fill up the garden with all our treasures, my love!!!
Hi Adela,
Thanks for your thoughtful message. Grief and loss are great topics for discussion or prompts for writing.
Glad you are feeling up to meeting again. So sorry you have been going through so much for so long.
Besides personal grief, many of us in the US are experiencing collective grief from losing our democracy, direction, and justice. We grieve our collective sense of decency, and rule of law.
Yes, I am interested. And I am massively busy through June. I want to be kept in the loop. That way I can connect when possible.
Lilacs and ladybugs,
Marifran
Yes, Marifran, it is a dark episode for our democracy. That has also been weighing on my heart. It is not possible to completely block out that siren call of the soul. It feels lighter when we share with one another. Thank you, my friend, for staying in connection!
Yes, dear Adela, life is a roller coaster of emotions and growth. It’s really surreal how grief has its way with us. It challenges everything we think we know and believe and shreds it in a way we never reassemble it quite the same. Both unnerving and a blessing. Hopefully we come out the other side with renewal in our hearts. Like you these last couple of years or so have brought many changes, growth and grief processes. Like you I am humbled , beginning again, stepping into it ready to create and finally share myself again.
Thank you for your sharing. I look forward to more. It is good to realize we are not alone in this journey.
"How grief has her way with us." What a perfect summation of the experience. There is absolutely NO control. Ha! That's always a toughie. And yes, it's hard to put back together when there's nothing but ashes left. There's also the risk to trust the loving presence in our lives because it often is accompanied by the deconstruction of said life. Another Ha! Feeling so grateful to have this conversation with you. Thanks, Karen.
Grateful for your share this morning.
Same here. I have been unraveling and patiently waiting for what’s next. What’s really calling my soul?
Unraveling!!!! Another magnificent way to articulate this deconstruction of our identity. Surrendering who we thought we were for who we truly are, again and again. This constant evolution of being that is a clear indicator that we are willing to be present. "What's really calling your soul?" What a great writing prompt!!! I think I'll take that one on too. Thanks, Hilarie! I appreciate your thoughts and connection.
Unraveling!!!! Another magnificent way to articulate this deconstruction of our identity. Surrendering who we thought we were for who we truly are, again and again. This constant evolution of being that is a clear indicator that we are willing to be present.
What a great writing prompt!!! I think I will take that one on too. Thanks, Hilarie! I appreciate your thoughts and connection.