Motherhood is a high-frequency adventure, a call to be living love. Although it may not initially appear that way, it is the experience of choosing love again and again. Whether it's your children, pets or creations, it is an opportunity to evolve your understanding of love. It's not always easy.
On holidays we honor the ideal. Yes, unconditional love is what we all aspire to. It's not always possible. Young mothers, women without support networks or access to education and resources, may find it especially challenging. There are also the societal norms that don't honor variations on the motherhood meme. This can all be a slippery slope for any mom.
Still, the ideal beckons. There is nothing that feels as good as Mom love. . .
feel her embrace …
how she sees you …
how you feel …
Wonderful, yes? From my own experience, this level of living love is not always instantaneous. I struggled with motherhood for a long time. I teetered between, “I don't know if I can do this?” to “You must, you can!”
I distinctly remember the vision of silencing my screaming son by bumping his head against the wall. Of course, I didn't do it. It certainly flashed repeatedly, like an echo, across the vision of my inner mind.
But . . .
I felt another call. It pulled me in. I softened and suddenly that little face became a call to love: more snuggles and singing, more listening and loving. I moved a little bit more into living love at that moment.
Moms aren't perfect. We fall short. Still, every day we are called to live love. When you listen a little more deeply you can hear it. When you honor Mother's Day, celebrate motherhood, deep down you're honoring and celebrating your capacity to be living love.
It's not always possible. That doesn't mean you don't yearn for the ideal. It's good to have that vision calling you towards it. It guarantees your evolution.
Feel that abundantly alive, deliciously dynamic pull to its emergence.
May you give that love and be that love.
Happy Mother's Day,
~A
